BEDA 2: Family Ties

So I went to bed at midnight last night after a ton of frustration trying to get my Skype to hold a call for more than five minutes. And then I woke up. At four in the morning.

I didn't go to sleep like I should have. Instead, I went onto Skype (again) and chatted with Blaze and Valerie for a few hours like a giant awesome dummy. And by the time I got off the call, it wasn't even really worth it to go to bed, so I just sat there and watched a few episodes of Gossip Girl. Yes, I've begun watching Gossip Girl. Sue me. After an hour and a half of watching pretty girls trounce around Manhattan and shit, I got tired of being a giant slob and got out of bed, made french toast for my family, and got dressed. My grandma was coming to pick me up for lunch, so I had to be ready and blah blah blah.

Spending time with my grandma didn't last very long though, because all the sudden I started feeling really really nauseous. I held on until we got to a Dairy Queen a few miles away and I managed to sip a cup of Sprite, but then I went to the bathroom and puked and all that. And needless to say, I went home after that. And I felt better and then worse and I went geocaching and then I got really dizzy and blah blah blah. But I don't really feel like talking about that.

I think I wanna talk about how weird it is to think that I won't have my family right there in a matter of weeks. I mean, I'll be honest. I don't really spend a ton of time with my family. Even at home, I spend a lot of time in my room on my laptop now that I have one. And I only see my grandparents a few times a year outside of holidays. So it's not so much that the amount of time I spend with them will be diminished or anything. At least, it won't be THAT much less. And obviously, being across the state doesn't really disable me from calling or sending emails. There's just something about the distance. Even if I don't see my family a super lot, it's comforting to know that if I really wanted to see any of them, I could drop by at a moment's notice. Which I never do. But that's not the point. The point is that if I wanted to, I could.

My very biggest fear is losing the people I love. Oh God, I'm actually tearing up right now. Bahaha, I am so lame. Anyways, obviously my grandparents aren't super young or anything, and I have no way of knowing how much more time I'll have with them. And I sort of regret not putting more time into the relationships, particularly with the grandma that I spent time with today.

And even when I finally got myself out there alone with someone who means so much to me, I somehow managed to mess it up. And we're rescheduling and I'll probably see Grandma Twyman in a few days, but still. I feel like I might have let her down, and it sucks.

So yeah. Onto the challenge. Five words I misspell a lot are nauseous, uhhh... Uhm. Honestly, I don't know. MADDIE, GIVE ME TWO CHALLENGES TOMORROW TO MAKE UP FOR THIS AWFULNESS.

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