Wednesday, August 11, 2010

BEDA 11: Holding Your Own

The phrase "hold your own" has always been really weird to me. I think that's because I think it's completely bogus, or completely spot-on. I'm not sure how something can be two separate things completely, but I think deep down, I'm convinced that being more than 100% is possible. That's a topic for a different time though. For now, I wanna talk about holding your own.

Something about this phrase in particular sort of irks me. I think it's because part of me interprets it as relying on yourself, and within my own personal experiences and trials, that generally did more harm than good. I've said it before and I'll say it again: there's a very good chance that I wouldn't have even lived to see today if I hadn't had those that I love to turn to and to walk with through my journey. They helped keep me alive.

I dunno. For me personally, I think that the relations that you form with those around you are integral in which path you ultimately end up taking in your life. Beyond that, letting your thoughts stir around in your own head without any sort of output can be so toxic - I've witnessed that for myself. I think that by sharing the burden with those you love and those who love you makes life so much more tolerable, and even beyond that, I feel like it builds certain sorts of interpersonal skills that are pretty fundamental in doing well in society.

On the other hand, it absolutely drives me crazy when people pawn off their issues onto others without putting any sort of real effort into remedying the situation. If you have a problem with something, it's important that you have the individual mental strength to, at the very least, think through those tribulations that you face.

I guess a lot of my feelings are impacted both by my past experiences, as well as my opinions on collaboration. I definitely value the input of others, and I doubt that I would get nearly as much done as I do if I didn't have people that I respect that I could work alongside. However, that isn't meant to diminish the value of independent thought and work.

I don't really know if any of this made any sense. This is the third blog I've written today, and I sort of just wanna be done. But... Uh. Yeah.

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