Sunday, August 8, 2010

VEDA 8: Happiness and Sacrifice

AHHHH, I NEED TO BLOG.

Okay, life has been very hectic lately, and I am getting sick of it. I am sick of having no time to relax and process my inner thoughts. I am an introvert. It would be appreciated if you allowed me to be introverted.

I was gonna do this really awesome blog about which fictional character has impacted me the most, and I don't even think I have the energy to do that because I am STRESSING. OUT. Which sucks, because I was (and am) convinced that that would've been a really awesome blog and we could all discuss things in the comments and such. But it's just NOT gonna happen because I'm all frantic and shit.

I'm going camping tomorrow. In a tipi. And it's probably going to rain, and I really don't WANT it to rain, because tipis have holes in the tops of them. Which means that the water will go from the clouds through the sky towards the ground through the hole into the tipi and ONTO ME. And I love rain, but not when it is drenching me as I sleep. That is not cool, rain. Please refrain from drenching me as I sleep.

Also, I feel really really bad because I leave really soon and I've hardly seen my family at all because I've been so busy running off with my friends. And my friends are all "You gotta spend time with us because you're leaving soon!" But my family won't say anything that point-blank because they see that I'm happy and they don't want to interfere. But I know that I'm really gonna miss them and I know that I'm really really gonna regret not spending time with them if I don't make more time to see them. I feel like I haven't talked to my mom in ages, and that's just not okay.

I mean, I am happy. It's like I've been telling everyone. I'm losing my mind, but ultimately I'm happy. The thing is, there's no way I can fit in all of the people and things that I want to see and do before I leave, and it's really hard for me to sacrifice anything. So uh. I dunno.

Leaving is hard.

Days until College: Six
Last video watched: Dr. Noise's Saturday video. Find it yourself.
Last song scrobbled: "Coin Operated Boy" by The Dresden Dolls

2 comments:

Katy said...

praying to the rain gods for you <3

and you won't be gone forever. you'll still see everyone, especially your family. so don't freak out too much <3 <3 <3

Geri said...

just remember that you will always be back for holidays and breaks. and summers. also, I had a friend who I was only a kinda friend with in high school but we really started bonding of *facepalm* myspace when I went to college and we are a million times closer than when we were together irl. so that's a thing.